Dear Guru Stu,
I really need your help. About a month ago I went on a spiritual retreat. It was one of the most amazing and spiritually moving experiences of my life. I can't find the words to describe what I experienced except to say that I "saw the light," for lack of a better description. I wasn't religious before then, but I became very much so afterwards.
My problem started about two weeks ago. I've become very depressed. I don't even want to get out of bed. I'm just as confused now as I was before. Life just holds very little meaning for me now. I'm not suicidal by any means. I just feel like there's so much more on the other side and nothing worth having over here. I mean look at what we do have - wars, AIDS, nothing but rape and harassment charges on TV. It's such a fiasco. I just want to run back to the retreat where it was all so much simpler. Unfortunately, I have too many responsibilities. I'm feeling claustrophobic. What can I do to get out of this?
Back in the Dark Again
Dear Back in the Dark,
Yeah, that happens. It's one of those drawbacks to seeing something larger than your ordinary life. Somehow you expect everything to change... and when it doesn't, it makes you depressed.
You're experiencing what I call "Post Enlightenment Blues" and it's a very real phenomenon.
Enlightenment is a very tricky thing. The minute you think you've got it, you've lost it.
What you need to realize is this...
"Enlightenment comes from knowing that it's okay to be dumb."
You see, it is okay for us not to know everything. It's okay to get a glimpse of something bigger then go do laundry. The spirit world is a wondrous place, but so is this one. You're just so used to seeing this one that you forget to look at the miracles of everyday life.
The world you saw and the world you live in are really the same thing. They just came with a different viewpoint. Like water and ice are the same thing, only different. That other world is there for you to tap into, just as long as you don't put more value in that world than you do your own.
Believe me, my friend, you're not the same as you were before. I know you're disappointed that you didn't make this huge change, but you did take a little step... and every great journey begins with that first step.